Archive for June, 2004

June 22, 2004

“These wounds, they will not heal.”

So, I have sold a lot of my CDs on eBay. And, much of what I have sold is stuff I listened to as a teenager. Metal, punk, industrial. Loud angsty stuff. I feel entirely too old to be listening to that shit anymore. I look at MTV and so much of it is geared towards teenagers and kids. Which is fine. But, see, I work at Borders in the music section. And, I see people too old to listen to that stuff buying it. I just can’t relate to the lyrics anymore, or the angst, anger, etc. I’m not depressed, or insecure, or anything like I was when I was 15 or whatever. I’ve discussed a few times lyrics that move me, and I feel they’re appropriately adult in nature. And, ironically, I feel lots of cursing, like in rap or some punk or metal, is very juvenile. Bjork, my favorite musical artist, has cursed once in her career, in the song Alarm Call. She says “I’m no fucking Buddhist, but this is enlighenment.” That strikes me as her really meaning it! The lyric makes a huge impression on me. I’m completely rambling right now, but I guess my point is I feel like some people are stuck in their teens, and it’s reflected in the music they listen to. I mean, how can you be 21 and listen to a song like Blink 182 where they sing “Here we are our very first date… I’m so nervous… can I hold your hand…”, or whatever they say? How can you relate anymore?

Yes, the title for this blog entry is a quotation of Linkin Park.

June 15, 2004

10 Movies I Hate… + 1

These are the ten movies I hate. What I mean is, these movies don’t just suck in my eyes, but they made me angry and resentful. Some of them I couldn’t even finish because I was hating them so much. I’m not going to give my reasons right now, but here they are in no particular order:

1. The Pledge
2. The End Of The Affair
3. Hurly Burly
4. Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas
5. Your Friends And Neighbors
6. Titanic
7. End Of Days
8. The English Patient
9. What About Bob?
10. The Jerk

I’d like to add one more, as it is animated and different from the rest:


There are some movies I have turned off in the middle, but didn’t hate them. I just got the point already and felt I didn’t need to finish them. A couple of examples are Gummo and Bamboozled.

June 9, 2004

“Look out ahead, I see danger come”

I found another apocolyptic song. “Big Exit” by PJ Harvey. It’s similar lyrically to “Things That Scare Me” in a lot of ways. It sounds huge too. I think I should make a mix CD of apocolyptic sounding songs. And this PJ Harvey song definitely is frightening, with lines like “This world’s crazy, gimme the gun.” Wow…. these are songs with important ideas and feelings in mind. “Baby, baby, ain’t it true: I”m immortal when I’m with you. But I wanna pistol in my hand. I wanna go to a different land.”

I guess some people might drift towards depressing songs when they’re going through what I am right now. I used to too. Especially the album “Automatic For The People” by REM. But, not this time. I am drawn towards take over the fucking world songs. Conquering songs. Songs that leave me feeling powerful. Honestly, I think it’s keeping me doing as well as I am.

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June 8, 2004

“I still believe in American dreams….”

There’s a song by Neko Case that sounds apocolyptic to me. It makes me want to drive 90 MPH down a long dusty southern highway, driving far far away from here. It’s called “Things That Scare Me”. All music should be this powerful. Instead, popular music has Avril Lavigne, who mutters such important things as, “I swear, all I do is drink vodka straight.” That’s just awesome, I’d hope you died choking on your own puke, but far too many more important musicians died that way. I listen to someone like Neko Case and am blown away at how such a powerful female musician is barely known, and twits like, Britney “Writing pop music is hard” Spears is able to churn out poor pop music. Well, maybe it’s better this way for me. Let the masses have their shit, at least I know if I go see a Neko Case, it’ll be in a small venue where i can *See* her.